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Aftermath of Labor day....
Friday I had insomnia and then had babysitting that evening. Not a hard job, a fairly easy one. The Chmeils, the hard part was putting them to bed. Saturday morning I went to work, though I had insomnia, and then went to the library. Sunday I slept poorly and went to mass in the morning. Juliet and I sniped at eachother and in the evening Maggie came over. It was fun, we talked and ate and then watched the Princess Bride together. Which I slept through parts of. Then it was up and off to bed for me where I collapsed instantly. Monday was Labor Day and I was up and about immediatly. And You know- there is a reason I don't like exercise. Like sure if I'm having fun I'll do it till I'm blue in the face but if I'm having fun my face usually goes the way of the tomato and I get very very hot. So yesterday my family, my aunt and uncle, cousin Doug, his wife Amy and Amy's parents all had a picnic. It was an okay picnic and I started off playing catch, and then we talked and ate, then played on the swings for a bit and finally played frizbee. Now my family plays Fairman Frizbee, which means we occasionally catch and our throws are usually a little... off. But it's fun for all. Especially with me running all over the feild shouting "Mine mine mine mine mine!!" And never getting halfway to the Frizbee before it was caught up. After that I was red in the face but okay and we all hung around. Later I began to fade out and about that time we started packing up to leave. Got home did clean-up I got on the computer for a bit and then it was off to bed. Now I did not fall asleep easily. And then I wake up and what do I have? A MASSIVE HEADACHE! And my skin feels like it's about to spontaneously combust. BADNESS in my skull! So that's why I'm not at school today guys, in case you were wondering!

To the world at large...
Am I not a good person? Or not a good freind? I mean, I'd like to consider myself one of the better people in the world (I'm not an active mass-murdering psychopath) and maybe a fairly decent freind (I'm pretty good about lending an ear and keeping secrets. Not perfect but who is?) so do I had an inflated ego or are there just people in the world that don't want to purge their demons? Okay, so yeah I can understand why some people don't Want to talk about problems they're having. But what if I know they're having them, but can't tell them I know? What if I know Exactly what they're feeling, how do I communicate that? When doing casual got me turned down and feeling like shit? And what about when once, ONCE, I vent my frustrations at a freind. Okay, so I have a disturbing tendency to do that but its not like I usually go overboard. I usually don't get majorly pissed off at people during stressful times either. This is brought up because David called today. The one with the five minutes of ASSHOLE! well, I had called him like a week ago about a movie I'd forgotten he was in Cali and just brushed it off. I figure okay, show's over, let's move on shall we? Well he calls and he's all grumpy surly, mono-syllabic one word answers and I'm like, this gonna be the way we do this? His comments are all, you're pissed at me I'm pissed at you. I even apoligized, damnation I do that to him a fucking lot, and invited him to my B-day party. Stupid, and I knew he wouldn't come anyway. Oh, and speaking of me being stupid how stupid is it of me to figure my freinds can plan an outing for themselves? I spent SEVEN MINUTES on the phone with someone trying to tell me she had no idea what she wanted to do and the person we were going out with didn't know either! Well guess what, I planned like the last THREE outings deal with it! Then they do come up with an idea, the beach... Who the hell goes to the beach in the evening? What's there to do? I didn't go but its because I'm depressed and in massive amounts of pain. Grrr... Sorry, this probably won't get published and is just for the venting but DOES this make me a terrible person? Cause it it does I feel pissed off. I mean I try to be nice and reasonable and listening and all that shit but seriously I HAVE MY F-ING LIMITS! I'm gonna go wallow in nasty burning thoughts of pain and blood and shadows. Ta.

Trips are.... trippy
Hey! Well I just got back from my trip to Miami and OSU! After a F-U-N night with Laura and the G-man I got up somewhere close to 6:30 in the morning and got ready to go. Well Laura had told me that Miami was 'Ignatious and Beaumont students in college and in the middle of a cornfeild' well I tell ma mere this and use my own analogy 'preppy version of Children of the Corn'. Which leads to about 5 hours of bad jokes about corn. They were funny but bad (and when the crop circle popped up during Miami's presentation my mom just couldn't stop laughing). Well, liked Miami. Preppy but still pretty neato. Next it was on to Columbus for Dinner with my brother, sister and Bro-in-law. I love hanging with John, Jim and Beth! We celebrated Bethie-boo's b-day @ this awesome restuarant. The food was Fantastico! Everyone but me had diff. types of pizza. I had a pasta dish called 'Chicken Diablo' mm-mm-mmmmmm... It was totally delicious! Well, after that we headed back to Jimbo's and Beths and sat around for a bit. Had a loverly bit of conversation. Then off to the hotel! Where, note, I didn't not spend a great deal of time sleeping. The curse of Insomnia!!! Well I did not really like OSU and did not stay for the tour. (I've already seen most of campus!) Plus I was feeling Really icky! Now I feel better! Since my mom took a nearly two hour ride in the country instead of a straight shoot up I-70. Country air is really good for me, we kinda knew this before hand, one more reason to go to school in the middle of nowhere. We stopped @ an outlet store and got me Jeans! Nice ones! They're in the was right now! And I got a fun hat (since I am a consistent hatlesss wonder) and a pressie for Laura's b-day! While I was gone my daddy and Juliet went to see Jasper Fforde speak @ Joseph-Beth books. I'm mad that I had to be out of town when that happened but I got an early b-day present! A signed version of 'Something Rotten' complete with a verbisite!!! TTFN! Ta-ta-for-now!! Kat on HAPPY PILLS

We put the Monstrous in Monstrous Ego
So, as many of you knew and a great deal of you did not I was in a play this summer at Dobama. I played Lady Clara in Charles II and Mrs. Jordan & the Contractor in the Great Divide. It was pretty good starting out, sure it made my summer just a little more hectic but I could deal with it and it was a great deal of fun too. While The Great Divide is Hellishly boring it did have promise and Charles II had so much naughty inuendo. Now my good pal (snark) David was in the casts too. We had worked together @ ME last year too and it had not been pleasent. However this year he was on medication and was acting much calmer and dare I say it pleasent. However as the show approached things began to slide. Liz our director, was not a very good director to begin with and never improved. She failed to advertise properly and copiously for us and her directing for Great Divide was terrible. Moe, our stage manager and Director for Charles is an unpleasent man to deal with in the first place and does not understand that elaborate sets don't work when you have no stage crew! His ideas were...interesting though. John can't act and didn't try. Amy was cool but her voice has almost no inflection. Julia's a righteous girl but she needs more emotions in her voice and more energy too. David went off his rocker near the end of the show. Brett was just a pain in the ass and was in Israel for most of the rehearsel time. Nick and Kelly were okay though. Anyway, so the run starts. Thurs was okay, w/ only family members in the audience. Fri. was nearly dead, and Sat. barely less so. Sun was pretty good. Fri was our best preformance(everyone said it was the lucky shamrocks I'd handed out). Now, David was a big problem for me those last days. Everything basically went fine till Sat. He kept hurting his ankle like continuosly on the stage. It was a running joke that the stage did not like him. I had some Tigers Balm and offered it to him. His response "its not edible" which had been his refusal for the lucky charm the day before. Now the limp he was sporting was pretty painful so I hounded him about it until he pissed me off. So I walk into the Girls dressing room (he's in the boys) and I shout ASSHOLE! At the top of my lungs. Then I start ranting. Now off course, David hears this I was being pretty fucking loud and we weren't that far off. Later on Nick approaches me and tells me that I should keep it down in the girls dressing room when I rant about David bc they can hear it and we 'don't want David to go off' at that point in the production. Now if there is One big pet peeve I have its mollycoddling. Don't make others pay because one actor/person can't handle their own emotional shit. Plus I'm really emotional during a production so with tears in my eyes I say to him. "You ever pull this with me again and you will have to deal with a whole Shitload more then you would ever have to deal with from David." And stalked off. God, idiotic actor. So whatever that's Davids problem and he milks it for all its worth and I basically ignore him. Now on Sunday Julia starts losing it during Act 3 of the Great Divide and is trying to hold back the laughter. David fights against it and when he looks at me I just about loose it. I Tried, badly, to disguise it as crying. So we walk off stage and the audience is Rolling in their seats. Anyway, I'm about to go back to normal Kat-David relations by laughing into his shoulder when he pulls away from me and hisses something about killing me. Before heading off to the dressing room and crying. Like a pussy, Jesus! Now later at the bonfire he brings the laughter up to Julia and starts bitching at her about it. I walk away because God forbid I get involved. Also at one point David brings up his Bar Mitzmah. At Davids Bar Mitzmah I, on a caffeine high, blurted out to his crush that David liked him. To Brian and Laura if they read this Yes the situation sounds familiar! But I mean David nearly set off another round of tears for me. There's only so many times I can apoligize for that! Gonna go, its 8:30 and I'm begining to get pissy. Ciao.

What's the best way to say "Fucking Naked!" to a child?
Okay, today? Soooo not of the good. I mean the actual day wasn't bad. Went to work, limited supply of screaming kids came home played on the laptop(which I am using to write this) and then headed out to babysit. Starting off, Clara once again wanted to get married. Now Clara's a cute little girl but she occassionally likes to play 'wedding' and unfortunately the only boy around to be the groom is her brother Matthew. Today it got even better. Clara was going to be a Princess but not until she married Matthew, who wasn't a Prince(ss)~not really sure which~ until he married Clara. Matt was also wearing a blue Cinderella dress. And 'glass' slippers. .... Uh-huh.... Anyhow, that wasn't so bad, I've gotten used to preforming the ceremony. Then I went around getting dinner ready, problem was there wasn't anything for me to eat. Oh sure there was plenty of food, but what I was cooking for the kids was 'kiddy food' and contained things(like 2% milk for the Mac&Cheese, and MSG for the chicken) that I cannot eat without serious repercutions. So I scrounged, usually the Youngs have good Kitti-chan food lieing around. Nothing. Plenty of food but nothing I really wanted to eat, so I had some chicken nuggets, potato chips, and apple slices. And lets not forget the root beer, later followed by the coke, and much later the ginger ale. So I drink a lot when I babysit, it keeps me awake and fairly sane! Anyway, we watched Shrek while we ate and the kids were pretty good. Then, whilst I cleaned up Matthew and Clara were watching some kids getting ready to leave for Prom and decided they wanted to see inside the limo. I told them no. Then they wanted to play outside for a bit(note-Matthew was still in the dress, not slippers this time) and I thought 'OK'. After trying to convince Matthew to take off the dress and then telling them NOT to go near the limo Matt and Clara proceeded to head to the limo. After astounding them with being a Hell of a lot faster then I look I put Matt in a fireman's carry and hauled him back to the house. Almost. I put him down on the sidewalk and he and Clara headed off to pet a dog. Then the father of the person leaving for Prom invited them to take a peak inside the limo. Gods, pay attention Man! Did it help my sit? NO!!! Then Clara wanted to be carried in a fireman's carry, because she wanted to be like Princess Fiona. Cause there's that one scene where Shrek carries Fiona like that. Don't think I like being compared to an ogre though. Then Matt took off. Fast, and oh did I mention I had no shoes? I didn't. Then I put Clara down and she headed after him. I wasn't about to run and catch them, its what they wanted. Though shouting obviously unimpressive threats probably played right into their hands. Clara made it up Fairmount and turned onto Canterbury before she decided to hide. Matt didn't stop running until about 6 more houses down. Deciding 'what the hell' we walked all the way around the block. My White socks were doomed. They got wet and later, Clara forced me into the mud, albeit accidentally. Man was I pissed. Good thing it was bedtime anyhow. But then they decided that they didn't want to wear pajama's. Clara started it because I had Matthew brushing his teeth at that point. So, she was completely stripped and complaining. After introducing them to phrases like 'Starkers', 'Completely Starkers', 'Nekkid' and 'But Nekkid' *not naked, its pronounced completely differently* I got them into pj's. Though neither wanted shorts but eventually they put them on. Though Matt interrupted my call to my Mikey about my terrible day in order to get him some water and later to get him pants. NOT A FUN NIGHT!!!! NOOOOOOOOOO LAUGHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Laughter= DIABOLICALLY TWISTED MURDER!!!

Eep-age!
Okay, so the last post was a bit of a doozy. It was kinda a rant and rave type of thing. Religious purge and the whatnot. So whatever... On to more important things, like how far I can stick my foot down my throat before choking. :D Pretty far if you take this Saturday into account. Here's the citch- I'm part of Academic Decathalon and we had a competition on Sat. We lost all 5 rounds, 3 of them by 500 points!!! THe others by like 30, but that's the amount of points earned by a bonus question so we did not mind. Well, Mr. Cory was telling us that it did not matter if we gave completely goofy answers to the questions if we didn't know the real answers. Because we weren't getting points off. Then he tells us that his team once handcuffed themselves to a table declaring they would not move until they won a match. Well, I said 'that's a great idea I know a great place to get handcuffs!' ... Hmm, did I get some weird looks from that? Yeppers, especially since I wrote a (kinda graphic) fanfiction that one of the girls had read. It was rated R!! She's a FRESHMAN!!! She shouldn't have read it!!! ~ducks head under table in shame~ So she was teasing me and we proceeded to have a conversation about it without ever actually mentioning it. She was surprised I was into... Stuff.... Her freind read it too. Again-- FRESHMAN!!! Later at Lunch we were discussing what we wanted to do when we grew up and I was saying I wanted to go into History and how it had so many different things I could go into. But there were careers I couldn't do because I have no patience or organizational skills. AKA- Achivist, or Archeologist. Then one of the girls says 'You can be Indiana Jones!' My response ~clears throat~ "He's an Archeologist, again no patience. But I wouldn't mind the bullwhip!" ........ Hmm, reaction to that? Loud laughter, and me hitting Tori(frosh who read my fic). Yeah.... Foot down throat and boiling in stomach acid.... Gotta run!

........ Well... Today Royally Sucked. .... Wanna know why? Of course you want to know why! Otherwhise you wouldn't be reading this site. Though only two people really read it, Sami and Janet. Luv ya 2 but this is going to be a bitchy, pissy, ranting, psychopathic post so if you want to preserve the veiw of a sweet angelic Kat turn away now. One last chance... 'Kay so today I thought would ROCK! because we had a theatre workshop. Well, got there and the car ride was not that bad. Sat between Lynne and Katie, kinda amusing with Lisa Caryer in the car. Dr. L. drove. So we saw a version of 'Much Ado about Nothing' that was only tolerable for 2 reasons; 1) I knew the jokes, 2)Benedict rocked my socks!!!!! Yeah he was cute but also an awesome and versatile actor! That was the good part, during the discussion afterwards Tricia pissed off the Director and he got super pissy with her. Not her fault the Director stole the soundtrack, setting, blocking, and cutting from Kenneth Branagh's movie version of it. Bastard(The director not Kenneth) Next my workshop sucked! It had NOTHING to do with musical theatre!!! And so I was completely bored, not to mention there were only 2 guys in there and one of the girls was sending me death glares!! (Blonde blockheaded bitch) Then whatever got back to school, walked home, didn't get honked at, went on the computer and basically been on it all night. Reading pornagraphic, slash, bondage fanfiction thank you very much. Grrr.... Then, Mom & Dad are out of the house by Six, Juliet went off with a freind, and Tricia's out babysitting. I'm alone at my home!! And guess what? I HAD NOTHING TO BLOODY DO!!!! No anime from the library and the movies Dad got me were only good for background noise while I worked on the computer. Though Cheaper by the Dozen was kinda cute... Then what did I do? Did I make out with my exceedingly hot boyfreind on my couch you ask? Why No!! I have no exceedingly hot boyfreind, or boyfreind, or freind with benifits or ANY PEICE OF ASS WHAT-SO-EVER!! So I washed the floor, in my junk pants and elbow deep in suds and all alone. God Damn the world. And yes I've been thinking about this post since I finished washing the floor a full 3 hrs ago. That's how pathetic I am. Yet another complaint, I'm not only pathetic and exceedingly horny I am also a dark twisted pathetic excuse for a person. I don't really feel many emotions. Not negative ones anyway, except anger, and guilt. It sucks, but I don't react to anything, or more accuratly I react but don't feel. Its all an act and my world is dictated by my audience. You would be SURPRISED at how I act when noone's around and its just me. Or when its my online freinds, or my freinds who never hang out with the other people. There's a total and complete change. I think the best example of my non-feeling(and I'm gonna get beat for this) Sept. 11th. Nothin. Memorial services; nothing. Dead relatives; nothing course only the distant ones have died so far. Hurting relatives; nothing. Which leads me to MASSIVE guilt problems. God I have HORRIBLE problems with guilt. I will remember something I did wrong when I was 4 and a half years old in PICTURE PERFECT clarity and still blush at stupidity. And a lot of my blushing has to do with idiotic older men who don't realize this underage bundle of energy is a bundle of hormones and sensitivity. ~mows down people with machine gun~ Gods, I have to purge my emotions somehow. Better find a cute guy to jump before I babysit tomorrow. Oh, and just to clarify things. I am a virgin. Not a lot of people believe me, but I am a virgin, never even been kissed I'm just very noligible when it comes to sex. I can tell you exactly where to hit something and when to hit it and whether to use lube or sex toys or what type of reaction doing such and such will do. I'm a guru, just not physically knowledgable, though I know the repurcussions. My first boyfreind better work out, because between the constant beatings and the sex he's gonna be black and blue and red (~_^) all over.

5 Odd Note Passing Tips
1) If the person you are passing the note to is in front of you and wearing a hoodie put it in their hood right by their neck so it scratches 2) Ask to borrow a pen, take apart the pen and stick the note inside 3) Borrow their paper to 'check some answers you didn't hear' and pass it back with the note 4) Slip it into their shoe/purse when bending down to pick up a pencil 5) Borrow their calculator/palm pilot and write the note on it

Grr....
Okay, what type of person within 24 hrs of an OPEN NOTE EXAM manages to lose their notebook? ME! That's who! Gods...~covers face with hands~ Urgh, 26 questions... I soooo failed the Sociology exam today.... Chem maybe not, but Soc is a definite. GRRR!!! And then everyone canceled on a movie on Thursday! ~shoots evil people who cancelled on me~ Luckily they aren't busy Friday, well except for Jani-chan :.( Sadness incarnate. But I've decided that some time travelling person decided to make me fail my Soc exam and have everyone cancel the movie on Thursday so some catastrophic event won't happen. I mean you don't have like 4 people cancel on you all at once with perfectly legit reasons! Its just not probable! ~takes out mallet~ Anyhoo I've got a stupid Math and French test tomorrow so I'm a little bitchy. No messing with Kitti-chan today!

It's a small world after all...
Okay, so today was a bit of an AMAZING COINCIDINCE! day. Or maybe a serendipitous day or something... I'm riding the highway or synchronicity! Ja that works, kinda John Constantine thing! Whoohoo! Anyhoo... So it starts off with Amanda and I looking at this plastic teddy bear rings we got yesterday and deciding that they were 'Captian Planet' type rings. Next we couldn't remember what the CP people were called so we asked and were told its the "Planeteers". Anyway, Amanda and I decided we were the 'Careful Bearkateers'(bit of a mouthful eh?) and are develping a big inside joke. Such as she's 'Heart' since she's got a pink ring and she's asian... I'm...nature? since mine's green. Yeah and Jenna's water. Well since Amanda's heart she now smacks me and says 'Be Healed!' in order to heal the corruptness in my soul. ^^;; Which lasts for all of five minutes(if not seconds). Well later in the day Sami Z. was looking at my ring and I mentioned the 'super hero' bit and she's like "Nah its a Capt. Planet ring." And starts singing the bloody theme song! WHICH I NOW HAVE TOTALLY ENCASED IN MY SKULL!(stuck in my head) Later on I was talking to my dad and he can remember the theme song, the names, yeah lots of stuff. Considering 3 children watched that show, Jon, Tricia and Me. Well, getting over that... Later after driving home from Flute Choir, and having recently told my ride, we saw a flag in an office window with the earth on it. YEAH! SYNCHRONICITY! Also both 'Red China' and the 'U.S.S.R.' were mentioned in casual conversation within an hour of each other(not my fault). And my flute conducter was talking about her estranged daughter while on Sunday my fam. had been talking about my estranged uncle! Ja, coincidince? I think so! Its late and I've got studying to do so I'm checking my netscape and eating IceCream before I go study for Chem and Sociology. CIAO!

Urgh....
Okay, 4 day migraine... WAY BADNESSS!!!! And like....grr.... My great Aunt Angela's wake is tonight and I toooootally don't want to go. Much as I loved the old broad. Tomorrow's her funeral and I can't make it beacuse of work. And then I'm working Sat. Night instead of going and seeing my little sister in her St. Patty's day show. I'm a bad person again. Still! Dietz isn't mad at me anymore! YEAH!!!!! ~preforms small happy dance, which is actually a lot more happy then dance but that's just cause I'm incoordinated~ I'm also really upset at Alaine! Damn! Why does she get all the cute boyfreinds(pouts). And now that they're dating I can't have a crush on him(BIG pout). If either of you are reading this(meaning Lainee or her boyfreind) I'm moving to Madagascar(starts packing suitcase). Anyhoo... just kinda bored and there was an ORIGINAL point to signing on to this thing.... But I can't remember what it was....